TIRED.
exhausted really, I don't know how I can even think of moving from bed at all today, poor ryan had to, he has work-afterall. Luckily I can do my homework from my bed, all 6 hours of it I have today. I'm not sure that we have been this tired since we got married, life is crazy, we hardly have a few minutes to breathe before going to sleep. and just knowing all of the things i have to get done today- i am more tired than before i went to bed last night. I think it has to do with all the things we have going on, weddings, birthdays, kids, graduations, hospitals, ect.
OVERWHELMED
obviously we have a whole lot on our plate. I have 17 credit hours this semester (i'm insane- you don't have to tell me twice) and ryan is in the middle of something, that is changing every plan we have made since getting married. On top of that we are trying to figure out how to live with each other, somedays it's perfect and everything just flows and we don't have to even worry about who will do what. Other days, we have to ask the big guy upstairs for a little extra help getting through the day. Being newlyweds is hard, extremely hard. You have to re-learn everything you have ever known about living and start doing things differently than you used to. It is hard enough with all of the above- but just because ryan and i cant do anything the easy way, we've also got my 6yr old brother and 14 yr old sister living with us, only for another week and a half but still. I'm counting down the days.
GRATEFUL
I don't want to sound ungrateful, and I know Heavenly Father wouldn't give us more than we could handle, but i cant help but think sometimes.."I really hope you are showing us our limits, cause if this is just a preview......" We are truly grateful for the amount of support we have, and the amazing family that we have. We are grateful that I can attend school without working full time, and that Ryan has the most amazing job he could ever hope for. We are grateful for those nights of peace and quiet that we get every once in a while, and trust me i know how lucky we are to have those. I personally, am grateful for Ryan, he is the strongest person I know. He always puts my happiness before his and he is an amazing example for me, and I know when we do have children.. He will be an amazing father and example for them as well. I can't say how we have been able to deal with everything in our first few months of marriage but I know that Ryan and I are together for a reason, and I don't think I could have ever done any of this without him.
-xoxo
Dakota
What a great post! You've got a lot going on...but you also have a positive attitude and that makes all the difference! I hope things settle down a little for you! One day soon you'll look back and be grateful for lessons learned. And yeah. It is REALLY hard to adjust to sharing every aspect of your life with another person, even when you like them. It gets easier...mostly.
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