What happened to 2013 & 2014

well, look- the thing is...... I'm an awful blogger. Seriously, I have no idea what happened or how OVER 2 years have gone by without me posting.. But out of the limited things I DO know, I figured out that 2014 was an awesome year- it was full of a few downs and a whole lot of ups. 

We bought a house?!? (Because apparently we are old enough to do that)

Traveled to another country

Hiked the coolest mountain, in an ancient city.

Bought a trailer- again; are we seriously old enough for that.

2 surgeries~because we wouldn't be Frandsens if we didn't have surgeries right?

A trip to Yellowstone with Melissa & Mahonri 

Gained a sister in law (that I seriously adore) 

And plenty of other things that I know I've forgotten.

Our lives are amazing, and I really want to document it better. So once a week I will try and update. I'm even going to set an alarm to remind me!! 

Anyway- wish me luck💕

Lately...

I feel like I don't think things through. Neither of us really do most of the time, but I feel like lately that has been amplified- for me at least. I'm on the tail end of recovering from my surgery, but it feels like now the improvements I have been seeing- have become harder and harder to see. I guess before I could see the physical healing taking place, and now its mostly internal- which is why it is taking a painstakingly long time to feel better. My energy is back, sometimes- but that means when I crash- I crash hard.
I thought the other day, since I have been actually been feeling pretty decent, that it would be a good idea to play with my dogs, didn't think it through. I got jumped on, tackled, and licked- wayy more than I wanted. And let me tell you, after 5 minutes with my dogs- I was exhausted.
I spend a lot of time trying to keep up with everything I have to do, and it's just not working.
On top of everything, I have also started going back to work- its actually kinda good because i have something to get up out of bed for- but it takes a whole lot out of me. - i just feel like all I ever do is get up, go to work, and crash on the couch when I get home. And if I do get ambitious enough to get up and do something, I pay for it the next day with wayy tooo much sleeping. My medicine is getting switched up now as well, and I don't really know how to feel about it. On one hand it takes all of the pain i have away, but it makes me feel so loopy and drowsy, Its almost like I would rather have the pain and not be a zombie. I'll give it a few days, since we just switched it around yesterday- but I'm not so sure I'd like to be a zombie all the time.
OH, and I almost forgot- I decided to take some classes for school this summer semester. Let me just use this post to remind myself that no matter what I think at the time- it's not really a good idea. Especially with everything else that i'm trying to do at the same time.
I guess I just wanted to rant, but don't get me wrong- I love my life. I love that I have the opportunity to go to school, and that I have access to such amazing medical care. I love that my husband is supportive of me no matter what, even if that means I'm having a rough day and all i want to do is sleep. I get that a whole lot of people in this world don't have the ability to say that they have as much as I do.
But right now, I just feel like my life is so off track- that it'll never make it back to normal. I just keep muddling through and hoping that eventually I will feel like me again.

Dear Ellie + Dear Pugsy

So i wrote letters to my dogs, make fun of me if you wish- but they are (and always will be) my babies.

Dear Ellie Baneli,
You have got to be the calmest Weimaraner on the planet, seriously you are so lovable and are completely content with just laying down for a good ol' belly rub. You have changed a lot since we picked you up at the airport in the middle of a snowstorm. You can sit, stay, fetch, and lie down- and your tail wags faster than i have ever seen when ryan tells you "good girl." Just yesterday you learned how to jump into the back of the truck- which is a good thing, because you are getting pretty heavy and I don't know how much longer Ryan will be able to pick you up. You are so clumsy, I think its because you watch pugsy run full force and dive under the back porch all the time- but he is 1/5 of your size and a whole lot more coordinated. You follow him everywhere and if we dare separate the two of you- you cry constantly.You are such an amazing dog and we are so happy that we have you as apart of our family. We love you ellie <3

My little Pug-a-lugs,
You have "first dog syndrome" to the fullest. You are such a jealous little thing, and just so you know, i love you more than ryan does- even if he tells you constantly that I wanted a different dog and didn't want you. We weren't even engaged when we decided to pick you up in mayfield, and truth be told- we went to see a different puppy (don't be mad), but you weren't having any of it. You ran full force at the fence and whined until we picked you up. You were an attention hog even then :) You have done such an amazing job teaching ellie the ways of our family, and even though you make sure she knows who is boss, we know you two are the best of friends. I am so glad that I convinced ryan to get you, and he even admits that you have grown on him. You are the best dog I have ever had, We love you so much pugsy.

Neglected.

That's what I use to describe my blog.

I guess I do have a pretty good excuse for not posting from february-now. but i still feel bad.

I am so lucky to have an amazing husband.

I am so lucky to have an amazing ward.

I am so lucky to have an amazing family.

I really want to write more, but I feel like there just aren't enough hours in the day.

I guess I will give it my best shot.

Love Always,

xoxox

Our family is growing.

Since obviously ryan and I aren't exactly ready for the next big step in our marriage. we took a teeny tiny one... well for now at least...

Meet Ellie

She is the brand spanking new addition to our little family of three. I always knew i wanted a pretty big family "straight out the gate" and boy oh boy am i getting what i asked for. She is a blue Weimaraner and she will fly into utah on november 30th :) needless to say- we have a whole lot to get ready for. Pugsy will be a big brother- i know he will be amazing showing Ellie the laws of the land around the Frandsen household. (you know like don't eat mom's boots, or dad's for that matter- even if they DO taste really good) I know how much joy pugsy brought into our home, and i can't wait to have that two fold!! 

in other news, i only have 3 1/2 weeks of training left (including thanksgiving break). 
let's just say- I CAN'T WAIT :)

Life is amazing.
xoxox

October- as my iPhone saw it

Photo dump. Yeah it's all I have time for...

distance

well as most know Ryan and I are embarking on a interested journey, and well its more like I am- and I'm already halfway through it.... the police academy.
which seriously? i never would have done anything like this normally because well, its just not me. or thats what i thought when i came into the program. I thought we were just being taught to keep people inline and do what they are supposed to do and take away the freedoms that these people once had before they turned into criminals. and well that's all kinda not what i would have figured i would want to do. fast forward 2 months and i love this , i seriously love it. learning how to help these people who have given up on everything that there are other ways for them to change and turn their lives around. I never would have thought that i would have found a job that i love in corrections but i have.

anyway after that lovely little rant i think i've learned and changed a lot since i've spent the past two months away from my husband, and dog, and my family. i guess it made me realized how blessed i am. i have the worlds greatest husband, my dog- well he's got his moments, and my family is the best part. so much in the fact that i cant wait to start our own family, ryan, pugsy, and me. don't get me wrong i love it just being the 2+1 of us but i cant wait for it to be the 2+1+1 of us. i look forward to having kids every day when i wake up. and i am so much so looking forward to making breakfasts, and packing lunches, and helping with homework. I cant wait!

but then i look at the life i live day to day, and i love our random trips to arizona, or weekends in nevada, or just doing whatever on a whim. and im not quite ready to give that up yet, or atleast i keep telling myself that.


anyway on a good note... I GRADUATE DEC 14. :) so i am so so so ready to finally be HOME.
ps. changed my google email, so all you amazing people with private blogs- invite me! dakota.frandsen@gmail.com


love you all :)